今天的洋葱特别刺眼，就算戴上眼镜也是泪流满面。

我把鱼和番茄洋葱一起焖软，加一点点白酒。想调出一种现在的心情。

离开的感觉，越来越强烈。

有朋友对我说：“工作环境只是一种空间，同事朋友以后也可以再约."

五万个人问我离开的理由，我用了一句话代表我的心情：

“我不知道我离开可以做些什么，可是我确定，如果我现在不勇敢，多年以后看回来，我一定会有遗憾。”

如果明年末日，我不会原谅自己的胆怯。

我知道我一定会慌，会无助，毕竟我是那种需要很多认同来换取安全感的人。

一闲，就会胡思乱想。

所以，这是给2012的自己很好的锻炼和挑战。

有朋友在我的fb留言：“外面风大浪大，要记得这里才是你的家，你随时可以回来。”

成长

成长是，脸上的细纹变多。

成长是，发现生命的价值不是和赚多少钱挂钩。

成长是，看一部好电影或听一首好歌都觉得很满足。

成长是，接受生命里有一些你争取不了的事情。

成长是，不再活在别人的眼光。

成长是，情绪放一边，先解决问题。

成长是，找出失落时，怎么样忍一忍就过去的方法。

成长是，尊重每一个人都有自己的选择。

成长是，会翻翻日记看看以前的自己。

成长是，适时地保持一点任性。

成长是，把情绪留给自己。

成长是，不再强求未来。

成长是，一个人喝酒也不会感觉寂寞。

成长是，珍惜每一天早上依然可以睁开的眼睛，依然可以跳动的心脏。

成长是，把棱角驯服，用事情的不重要性，慢慢，慢慢安抚自己。

成长是，发现生命的珍贵，掩饰一些莫须有的挣扎和无奈。

成长是，渐渐把自己的位置放低，别人的位置升高。

成长是，自己一个人也可以找到舒服的姿势。

成长是，懂得怎么样把身边的温度调暖。

成长是，写了一些什么在部落格，为了避免别人担心，




还是选择把它删除掉。


你的……成长呢？

My Happy Ending

Lets talk this over,It's not like we're dead.Was it something I did it. Was it something you said? Don't leave me hanging,In a city so dead. Held up so high,On such a breakable thread.
You were all the things I thought I knew,And I thought we could be.
You were everything That I wanted. We were meant to be, supposed to be, But we lost it. All of our memories so close to me Just fade away. All this time you were pretending. So much for my happy ending.
You've got your damn friends,I know what they say. They tell you I'm difficult, But so are they. But they don't know me, to they even know you. All the things you hide from me, All the SHIT that you do !!!
It's nice to know that you were there, Thanks for acting like you cared, and making me feel like I was the only one. It's nice to know we had it all, Thanks for watching as I fall. And letting me know we were done. It's so much for my happy ending...